Happy 5th Birthday, little man. Mommy can’t believe you’re 5. Time passes by so very quickly, it flies by leaps and bounds, and I can’t stop it. I hope I am treasuring every second of your beautiful life, my little gift from God.
5 seems so big to me, how did that happen?! How did 5 years fly by? You were just a newborn baby cooing, just a little toddler I was cheering for to toddle around for the first time, just a little 3-year old singing his alphabet for the first time, just a darling 4 year old with the most logical ideas I’ve ever seen.
You love Captain America, Landon (and I do mean LOVE), and you can talk anyone’s ear off..you know no stranger. You’re always willing to start up a conversation with someone, to jump around, to show them your love of life and your infectious giggle. You teach me every day that everyone is the same inside, and smiling and talking to the bank teller, or the homeless man we walk by, or the baby at the store is the most wonderful thing in the world, because you just said something to brighten their day.
5 years old is a big boy, that’s what you tell me every day. 5 years old is much older than 4 years old. It’s entering boyhood, when you are no longer a preschooler. Now you’re about to start kindergarten, and all the adventures school will bring you. This year you’ll be older, and wiser, and smarter. You’ll fall, but you’ll learn and you’ll grow.
You might be little, but you teach me how to be a better person every day. How to slow down, how to play, how to care, and how to dream. You are logical, and when you are quiet, you are considering someone. And then comes the most profound statement I’ve heard, with a question that is entirely too huge for a little boy, and I realize how much you watch people, how much you understand.
The eve of every birthday you and your sister have, I wish I could freeze time. I wish I could hold you back for one day, one hour. That I could just sit and stare, at the wonder of you, and stop you from growing. That I could impart to you all the wisdom I have and know, so that you may never be hurt by life. The people you love the most will disappoint you, and life will jade you. You’ll wonder what to do, and where to go next. You’ll wish you could disappear for 1 day, to just have silence and quiet. You’ll second think you’ll choices sometimes, Landon, and people will tell you that you made the wrong ones. You’ll debate whether to say something, and when you do, it’ll go so awfully wrong you’ll wish you hadn’t, but you were still brave enough to try. Never let someone break you down with their words, or what they say about you. Always remember that you are made in God’s image, and that there is only one of you, Landon. No matter what anyone else does, you are you. And you are unique. And you are amazing.
I love you, my little Captain America. Slow down little man. Mommy can’t stand watching you get so big so fast.
Your little hand’s wrapped around my finger
And it’s so quiet in the world tonight
Your little eyelids flutter cause you’re dreaming
So I tuck you in, turn on your favorite night light
To you everything’s funny, you got nothing to regret
I’d give all I have, honey
If you could stay like that
Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up
Don’t you ever grow up, just stay this little
Oh darling, don’t you ever grow up
Don’t you ever grow up, it could stay this simple
I won’t let nobody hurt you, won’t let no one break your heart
And no one will desert you
Just try to never grow up, never grow up